Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Where He leads me I will follow

Dear Diary,

House hunting can be a lot of fun. Looking at different ones, seeing how your stuff can fit in that persons home, finding ways you can add your own touch to it. All of this would be great to start doing if we could just find one to go look at. Every single house we find that we love ends up being sold right under us. We have the appraisal today and if everything comes back good, we will need to be out of our house come May. That gives us a little over 1 month to do what we just did for our house. But with no houses to look at, I am starting to feel the pressure. I don't want to settle and I don't want to get a house that I'm just ok with. I want to walk in and say Yes, this is it. This is the one. I don't like the new homes that are being built because every house looks the same and I am not that kind of girl. Both Bobby and I love a home with character and a backyard space. And the ones they are building now are just cookie cutter homes, with no backyards. They are just trying to fit as many homes as they can in one lot. So when you take those homes out of the equation, you aren't left with many and the ones you are left with sell fast. And I'm not shocked because our house sold fast (well if everything goes good today, it will be). 
Bobby and I are finding we either need to spend just a tad more to get what we want or go on the cheap route and buy a house that needs a lot of work. And if I wasn't 22 weeks pregnant, going the route where we have to do a lot of work would be amazing and fun and make the house our own. But I am pregnant and this isn't going away anytime soon and then there will be a baby and doing construction around a baby just isn't what I want to do. 
I keep praying and keep asking God to send us something that is best for us and I have to put my faith in him that everything will work out to his plan. As hard as it is, and as much as I struggle on a daily basis, I know at the end of the day everything is in his hands and he will lead us where we need to be. It reminds me of the Hymn: Where He Leads Me:
Where He leads me I will follow,
Where He leads me I will follow,
Where He leads me I will follow;
I'll go with Him, with Him, all the way.

I just keep telling myself this each day and it reminds me that God is in control, God will lead me and Bobby where we need to be and that I am living on God's time, not my own. 

We are 22 weeks today! He is the size of either a spaghetti squash or an ear of corn, whichever is your preference. He can see light and has eye brows. He can hear my heart beat, my stomach churn and the sound of my voice (poor kid). He is working on his motor skills by moving his arms and legs around. 

Love, Me